I am all settled back in the MILE HIGH state of Colorado and have been loving it. I feel much more grounded here and it helps to be around family and good energy! I recently got in touch with some of my old high school girlfriends. One of my old gal pals is a triathlete who loves to inspire women to compete.
Long story short, she got me to start training and to sign up for my very first triathlon this summer. It has been a wonderful journey. I have learned a lot about myself in this process. One thing I noticed right away is my love of being in nature and "working out" in real life. I have always had a hard time doing boring weight training workouts in the gym for hour after hour. I admire people that can do this but I have no interest sweating in a gym being bored out of my mind. I love being outdoors running, biking, swimming. I also really love the challenge physically and mentally this training has given me. I am grateful this gal came back into my life. It was perfect timing as my focus in life was all over the place and I really needed some disciplined and grounded training.
I will continue to share my journey and learning with you on this. Thanks for your support and positive vibes! Love, Mikayla
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Letting Go
What an interesting topic on an interesting day! Today is Valentines Day 2009 and I have decided to do a letting go ceremony. This year, I am alone in the romantic department. I realize my efforts in letting go of things has been pretty hard the past few years. I started in early 2008 by letting go of material things...that part was not too hard. Now, I feel I am ready to let go of more difficult things...the people in my life who were at one time very important to me. I decided to to do this in a public manner simply for myself. =)
Relationships shift as does everything in life. I now officially am releasing all the energy, thoughts, actions and reactions I have put into all of my past relationships. These people are no longer in my life for a reason and I am accepting that now. I wish them well and I am ready to move forward in my life and start things fresh and new.
Thank you all for reading this and being a part of my sharing. I support you in any of your letting go and hope you can let go of what is not serving you and start filling your life with energy that is positive and that serves you well! Hugs, Mikayla
Relationships shift as does everything in life. I now officially am releasing all the energy, thoughts, actions and reactions I have put into all of my past relationships. These people are no longer in my life for a reason and I am accepting that now. I wish them well and I am ready to move forward in my life and start things fresh and new.
Thank you all for reading this and being a part of my sharing. I support you in any of your letting go and hope you can let go of what is not serving you and start filling your life with energy that is positive and that serves you well! Hugs, Mikayla
Monday, February 9, 2009
Intimacy-Osho
-"Life is a flux, it is a river. It goes on changing its moods. So one need not be worried about consistency. Anybody who becomes worried about consistency will become untrue because only lies can be consistent. Truth is always changing. Truth contains its own contradictions - and that's the richness of truth, that's its vastness, that's its beauty."
-"The reason everybody looks so frustrated is that nobody has listened to his own voice."
-"Unless you come to know who you are, all that you seek is futile because you don't know the seeker."
-"The reason everybody looks so frustrated is that nobody has listened to his own voice."
-"Unless you come to know who you are, all that you seek is futile because you don't know the seeker."
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Sunday, February 1, 2009
A quote to share with you all...
“The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are.” - Joseph Campbell
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Fantasy Versus Reality....
Fantasy worlds versus Reality Worlds...I am curious what is real and what is not real. I have been asking myself this question for at least ten years of my life. When I entered the Fetish industry I realized that not all people live in reality. I suppose it is reality because it is their reality but I question how far some people take this. At times, I have even been so caught up in the fantasies of some things that I am completely unaware. What happens though when people start becoming so addicted to their fantasy and then really thinking that this is their life. I believe fantasy is a healthy thing but what if it takes over and becomes your only thing?
I have a client (who will remain anonymous) who has literally created his own fantasy world. In some ways it reminds me of Michael Jackson. I know that might be a weird comparison but let me explain. MJ has enough money and enough fame and the imagination to do what he has done. He has literally created his own world. I am not saying there is anything wrong with this I am just curious how people live there and what is it like to loose touch with the "real world". My client has paid people in his life to do and say exactly what he wants. He does not do this by force or even directly but he has set it up where all the women in his life create his reality. It is a bit odd to read I am sure and perhaps someday I will go into more detail of it. It just blows my mind that because he has enough money and the imagination to do it he has manifested this lifestyle by paying the people around him to do and say exactly as he wants. He has trained them to do this.
What interests me the most is that I recently got so sick and tired of playing the game of creating these complete fantasies and having him believe every single one of them as if they really were happening that I told him I could no longer be a part of his game. I let him know that all of it was a lie and that these people who he has in his life could really care less about him they are just creating the lie for money. Perhaps that was not my business to say because really I am sure that some of the people care about him. Anyway, the interesting thing is that he completely ignored my truth and told me that he would pay me more to stay in his life. Oh Lordy, anyway that was the drama of it all.
The question I have is I wonder what that is like to live like that. Probably extremely lonely as deep down he knows it is not real and can never be real. I suppose that what I have learned from this is to pay attention to my own reality and really no one else's fantasy or reality is any of my business. I do this for a living and I have to take myself outside of what I call reality sometimes. This has always been such a dilemma for me as I enjoy what I do as a business but have these little issues pop up every now and then. Anyway thanks for reading and allowing me to share.
Question for you: How do you connect with your fantasy and/or your reality? Do you allow it to take over your life losing connections with real people in your life?
I have a client (who will remain anonymous) who has literally created his own fantasy world. In some ways it reminds me of Michael Jackson. I know that might be a weird comparison but let me explain. MJ has enough money and enough fame and the imagination to do what he has done. He has literally created his own world. I am not saying there is anything wrong with this I am just curious how people live there and what is it like to loose touch with the "real world". My client has paid people in his life to do and say exactly what he wants. He does not do this by force or even directly but he has set it up where all the women in his life create his reality. It is a bit odd to read I am sure and perhaps someday I will go into more detail of it. It just blows my mind that because he has enough money and the imagination to do it he has manifested this lifestyle by paying the people around him to do and say exactly as he wants. He has trained them to do this.
What interests me the most is that I recently got so sick and tired of playing the game of creating these complete fantasies and having him believe every single one of them as if they really were happening that I told him I could no longer be a part of his game. I let him know that all of it was a lie and that these people who he has in his life could really care less about him they are just creating the lie for money. Perhaps that was not my business to say because really I am sure that some of the people care about him. Anyway, the interesting thing is that he completely ignored my truth and told me that he would pay me more to stay in his life. Oh Lordy, anyway that was the drama of it all.
The question I have is I wonder what that is like to live like that. Probably extremely lonely as deep down he knows it is not real and can never be real. I suppose that what I have learned from this is to pay attention to my own reality and really no one else's fantasy or reality is any of my business. I do this for a living and I have to take myself outside of what I call reality sometimes. This has always been such a dilemma for me as I enjoy what I do as a business but have these little issues pop up every now and then. Anyway thanks for reading and allowing me to share.
Question for you: How do you connect with your fantasy and/or your reality? Do you allow it to take over your life losing connections with real people in your life?
Friday, January 30, 2009
25 Random Things About Mikayla
1.) I love Riesling and sometimes Merlot. (depends on my mood)
2.) My secret fantasy in life was to be a cheerleader but I was always the athletic jock girl. (ironic)
3.) I love to travel...my goal is to fall in love, travel and see the entire world with the guy that I share my life with. It will happen someday =)
4.) I am a leader by nature but never like to take on the leadership role though it is handed to me in everything I do in life. (even being the first born)
5.) I have been a professional in a lot of different worlds, teaching, modeling, fetish, fitness, corporate, etc. and I learned I only like to work for myself so that is what I do.
6.) My passions are yoga, nature, the ocean, the mountains, my family and my freedom
7.) My heroes are my father and my friend Gordon.
8.) I have an obsession with reading. I read about two to three books a week.
9.) I HATE television and all the crapola on it. I do watch HGTV (decorating shows), Oprah and Suze Orman.
10.) I recently finally reached my goal of owning my own place for the first time in my life and love it!
11.) I watched HGTV for the past two years getting ideas for my new home because I knew I would have it by the year 2009.
12.) I LOVE Suze Orman. I listen to and read everything she produces. I think she is an intelligent woman in the financial world and she has helped me immensely.
13.) Someday I want to do a volunteer trip around the world just visiting different countries and volunteering my skills to whomever and wherever they are needed.
14.) I love Indian food and I put curry, cayenne pepper and mint on almost everything I eat.
15.) I usually drink nothing but water with no ice.
16.) I LOVE to laugh but have not done a lot of laughing in my life in the past few years. I miss it!
17.) I have been through a lot healthwise including cancer when I was 23. It was the ONE thing I think saved my life. It made me change my entire perspective on life! I am grateful!
18.) I love being in my 30's and think that as a woman things only get better as you age. I love it!
19.) I want to be an author.
20.) My goal is to create ease, beauty and fun around me.
21.) I love to PLAY. I think it is important to keep that inner child...though I have not been doing this much the past few years of my life...gotta work on that.
22.) My favorite authors are Alan Cohen, Wayne Dyer, Marianne Williamson, Sark, Tony Robbins, Maya Angelou
23.) I have met some REALLY amazing and inspiring people in my life both famous and not so famous! =)
24.) I believe the most important things/concepts in life are family, dreaming, freedom, creating, inspiration, laugher, and love.
25.) My perfect day would be a day where I just got to chill (having coffee or lunch) with someone (friend or stranger) who is consciously creating in life and wants to explore and go deeper in life. I LOVE surrounding myself with people who want more from life and not to just sit around and complain or talk about the negative crapola. =)
2.) My secret fantasy in life was to be a cheerleader but I was always the athletic jock girl. (ironic)
3.) I love to travel...my goal is to fall in love, travel and see the entire world with the guy that I share my life with. It will happen someday =)
4.) I am a leader by nature but never like to take on the leadership role though it is handed to me in everything I do in life. (even being the first born)
5.) I have been a professional in a lot of different worlds, teaching, modeling, fetish, fitness, corporate, etc. and I learned I only like to work for myself so that is what I do.
6.) My passions are yoga, nature, the ocean, the mountains, my family and my freedom
7.) My heroes are my father and my friend Gordon.
8.) I have an obsession with reading. I read about two to three books a week.
9.) I HATE television and all the crapola on it. I do watch HGTV (decorating shows), Oprah and Suze Orman.
10.) I recently finally reached my goal of owning my own place for the first time in my life and love it!
11.) I watched HGTV for the past two years getting ideas for my new home because I knew I would have it by the year 2009.
12.) I LOVE Suze Orman. I listen to and read everything she produces. I think she is an intelligent woman in the financial world and she has helped me immensely.
13.) Someday I want to do a volunteer trip around the world just visiting different countries and volunteering my skills to whomever and wherever they are needed.
14.) I love Indian food and I put curry, cayenne pepper and mint on almost everything I eat.
15.) I usually drink nothing but water with no ice.
16.) I LOVE to laugh but have not done a lot of laughing in my life in the past few years. I miss it!
17.) I have been through a lot healthwise including cancer when I was 23. It was the ONE thing I think saved my life. It made me change my entire perspective on life! I am grateful!
18.) I love being in my 30's and think that as a woman things only get better as you age. I love it!
19.) I want to be an author.
20.) My goal is to create ease, beauty and fun around me.
21.) I love to PLAY. I think it is important to keep that inner child...though I have not been doing this much the past few years of my life...gotta work on that.
22.) My favorite authors are Alan Cohen, Wayne Dyer, Marianne Williamson, Sark, Tony Robbins, Maya Angelou
23.) I have met some REALLY amazing and inspiring people in my life both famous and not so famous! =)
24.) I believe the most important things/concepts in life are family, dreaming, freedom, creating, inspiration, laugher, and love.
25.) My perfect day would be a day where I just got to chill (having coffee or lunch) with someone (friend or stranger) who is consciously creating in life and wants to explore and go deeper in life. I LOVE surrounding myself with people who want more from life and not to just sit around and complain or talk about the negative crapola. =)
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